A step in the right direction ---

My last scan was "stable", and although Dr. Kaplan told me with a smile on his face, my first question was, "Is that good enough?".    The answer was "yes" and after thinking about it (and asking a few questions),  I understood why.

Two of the four tumors I've had since May have been slowly shrinking, while the other two have continued to grow.  This is the first time the stubborn tumors have been affected by any treatment, which is a good sign.   And because my white blood cells are stable (which has been a problem), I increased the dose of Cytoxan, which will hopefully move things from "stable" to "shrink".  

And more good news:  My cancer markers have decreased from 230 to 130, which is a significant jump. The other good news is Cytoxan continues to be a manageable drug and I'm hopeful I can continue taking it for a while. 

The scan did show that I likely have a "hemorrhagic"  cyst on my ovary, which is exactly what it sounds like -- some blood has leaked in to a cyst.  Unfortunately, its also possible that its a tumor with a blood supply that makes it look like a hemorrhagic cyst.  My follow up ultra sound is in 4 weeks and I'm going to try not to worry about it too much until then (but I'll worry a little). 

I'm still dealing with dental problems from one of the original treatments I was on.  It's frustrating because I use prescription fluoride and the dentist says my oral hygiene is "impeccable", but its hard to overcome permanent damage to your jaw.  I saw an oral surgeon and I'm going to lose another tooth next week.  This one is in the back and I don't think I'll replace it, but I'd still rather keep it!

I also have what is likely a torn tendon in my foot, or possibly several small tears. Its a slow healing process but I like the doctor I'm seeing and it is getting better. 

To add insult to injury, Daniel came home with lice the same week James' car needed a new fuel pump.    I think I was too tired to cry as I picked nits out of Daniel's hair, did a ton of laundry and figured out how to manage with one car during a busy week. 

I saw this quote in a magazine recently.   Its something I think about often, and although I'm not perfect at it, it has helped me get through some difficult weeks: 

"Every day and every breath is a gift.  If we can only see it for what it is."

I am thankful for each gift.  Well, maybe not lice.